Well, I went to watch Spiderman 3 with my brother today on the opening day!!!! Scream!!!! I was initially worried that thy might over do it caz there are a lot of issues for spiderman this time round. But I am most glad to say that they didn’t do overdo it. Maybe caz I got little butt so my butt was kid of sore from sitting in the cinema but I really did hope it could have been a little bit longer.

Then, remember the higher paying job that I was talking about? They called to say that there might be a problem with the pass and was asking to arrange for a 2nd interview. Reason being I used to work for DFS and it didn’t quite end too pleasantly but if you were to ask me wad was it exactly, it being some 2 and a half years ago is really kinda hard to recall but as I was scrolling through the list of thins that could have triggered it, I was just wondering how young and naïve n childish I have been. Well, I must say that I have changed a lot since then. Well, the job at DFS was my first real job after the A levels and I was kinda upset by all the things happening in it. But after time in uni, experience from other jobs, meeting and knowing a wider circle of people, I must say that if I was in the same situation again it would definitely turn out very different, I think i won’t have even left the place. Well, hopefully the interview will go well tml caz besides the it being a new and exciting job, I really need the money. Nott so much to spend but to save for schooling for the China pat and for my bf to come here and find a job. Well, to begin with, the gal has yet to call back to let me know the time of the interview tml. Sigh….keeping my fingers and toes super cross.

Well, talking about my bf, I really really really miss him. I miss him every day its just that on other days there are other things to keep me busy about and today on the way back from the movie I was just thinking about the times when we were to go out together. The blissful feeling. Well, I am in a typical relationship which I think most people do whereby the gal is the one being taken care off. Well, not necessarily monetarily but emotionally, physically etc etc, its just the feeling of blissfulness that comes from within that is so so sweet, that I so much so miss. No matter how I portray myself to the people and the rest of the world around me, and I think this applies to a lot of people out there, ur partner will e someone that you can bear yourself out with and sometimes even fool around with your partner by being a little childish at times n you know the other person won’t mind and you know that it will not incur any kind of back stabbing or unpleasant events to take place later. Sigh……………

(written on 29 april actually...........)

Well well………I have finally reached the end of my papers!! Actually I reached the ends of my papers a few last fri n today is my 2nd day of freedom already!!!!

But the word freedom is rather subjective, well, free from the books but getting ready to plunge into the worklife n hopefully al will turn out well as I go nearly all out to try to earn as much as possible for the saving to go China for the last 2 years part and the bf part. Well, I must say that I don’t really know which do I prefer. Studying or working caz even when I am studying I am still half working with tuition n last time the OCBC credit card promoter job but now I can just fully focus n try my best to work. The good thing about working is that I can just work n work n work n if at night really tired can justlike that fall asleep n no need to go care that there is a report or a test that is coming up that I must study for.

Well, let me quickily share with you the last paper before I go on about stuff Ithat I really want to share. Well, I must first say that I think the last paper was quite alright although I dun know about half the mcq qns which makes that 20 marks but most of the other stuff I am confident hat I at least got 80% correct？keeping my finger crossed about the CAP, hope I dun do too badly n fall out of the honours.

Well, there was this thing about making decisions that I will like to share(and boy is this going to be long)……

Well, I must say that I am the kind of person who like to ask around about other people’s opinion about something before I make a decision myself. Well, I won’t say that I am someone who does wadd the crowd says but its part of looking for some assurance that the decision that you have in mind will really be a good one. But sometimes, when the choices that I make didn’t turn out so well, there is this tiny little part of me that kinda blames those who think that it might work out although I know fully that I am to be responsible for my own decisions and I really hate myself when I do that some times. Caz the indecisive me was showing up when I needed to choose between a confirmed low paying temp job vs a higher paying job which is really uncertain wheteher there will be the job anot. In the end I choose the higher paying one.

But after all of it, I was thinking about all the things I heard pple say about, that when in doubt they ask God. Some people ask n looked out for the “sign” in whichever form it mey come in but some asked n didn’t bother to keep an attentive look out. well, then I was also thinking about this story in the Daily Beard that I read years and years ago. Well, it was about this father and son who was along the highway and there wasn’t many cars along that highway when the dad decided that he would do something that is not really quite right(but I can’t really remember wad it was already). He then ask his son to keep a look out to see if there was anyone passing by from the left or right and then the son asked if he should also be looking up to see if God’s watching? The things that I want to conclude here is that if we are going to be concerned about anyone’s opinion about us I think we should be most concern about God’s opinion of us because he is always watching.............

think about it................